Str8 humble

Sometimes I feel like jus quitting because the road is so damn long. My self esteem keeps me second guessing myself. I really hate it. But I welcome it because it disciplines me to stay humble.

The crush

I thought I would ever be attracted to someone who is pregnant wit a child who isn't mine.

I don't kno what it is. But I do crush a lot. The little things make me attracted to a person. Maybe becuz she got such a cute smile. She got a hustle and she got it bodywise. She don't escape my mind. She will never know that I like her becuz she will never like me. I know this crush will end. But do I want it to end?

short story

heres a short story..... there is this girl i kno who do a lot of fucking arround...she was finding herself, or so she say. i never fucked on her so she keeps doing what she do...she gets hurts numerous times and she slowly rebuilds herself....her last dude is the one that got her to stop being promiscuous. but she will fuck on someone else when they start going thru it....so i decieded to try to smash, she is now on her J.O.B. she go to school and work...my offering of sex made her a good women now...she been promiscuous free for almost a year....ever since the day i offtered her sex....the end.

The Answer

I was asked a question today that had me stuck.

She had me realized that I don't love her. It's was lust. And I guess in my situation, I'm still in lust somewhat. But the old way I felt about her has truly diminished.

I admit, blazing gave me the ability to stop caring but damn I didn't know that I felt like this.

Jus using my lust to smash was a response I thought was correct. That shit was way off. After all the things she did to me, I stay around. She did me wrong. My friend says she constantly shits on me. But I can honestly say that all shitting has stopped. Been stopped for at least a year Yet I'm still here. Why am I still here?

answer: all the things I did for the girl who shitted on me, she owes me sex. Prolly more Than once and when I lose my weight, I'm getting it.

Esteem

If I can prevent low self esteem I'll be jus fine

Jus Sayn'

Yea. I seem to come to the realization that I'm not in love. But I like real hard. I do love someone but R5 won't let me.

Forbidden fruit

I'm a man that appreciates a good person when I see one. But it's hurts when the one I want is forbidden fruit. Wait! I can't say forbidden fruit but I can't seem to taste it when I feel ready to. Am I being impatient? How do I know that I will be able to taste the fruit in the future? Can I get some insurances?


These are the questions that you gotta live life to answer. It's a love hate thing. But I can do it. Watch!

Trusting

Sometimes in life you gotta give some folks a lil dirt on you in order for them to trust you especially when you got mad dirt on them.

24

Man. Ima take it one day at tyme. Keep my regime. Im starting it off by myself. But eventually ima get help. But I wanna start this alone. Because I'm self conscious about this.

Randomness

So I was jus laying down in my bed when she called. I was excited that my phone had her name on it when it rang. So I answer the phone in anticipation of her wanting to come visit. Her phone pocket dialed me.

I'm heated.

Fact

I gotta give credit where credit is due. Some women who know how to put themselves together (chlothing, make up shoes) is the only thing that keeps them looking cute to me.

Random thoughts.

I have this moment when I wanna give y'all my random thoughts.

You kno what I learned this week?
Trust no one.

Sometimes all you can trust is you. Things can be misconstrued in way you can't even imagine. The crazy part is the harder you words are twisted, the harder it is for you to display the truth.


Show now love. You can't. The enemy will use it against you. Gotta keep you feeling tucked. Just got too. If that don't happen then the next is heartbreak. It's comes when you not expecting it. It hearts when your putting it out there and rejection is the result.

I tell u this: when you decide to love, gambling is the only start point.

RIP

Gone but never forgotten.

Tru

Knowing the rules/ knowing the expectations = less pain for the heart

Single in the summer works

Looking at too many women

I need my mind to focus.

my view on it 6/19/12

i be having a lot to say about this subject but how yall might not understanding  makes me afraid to say what i feel. i love you...no doubt about that but my heart wants us but i dont wont us if your not ready. i am a patient man. besides, i gotta lot of working on me i need to deal with. my patience will run low if im all the way done working on me and your still stuck right here mentally.

M.O.C.

i cant seem to get her off my mind. am i in love? or do i just got it hard for this one person? when she got problems, i make them mine. when she happy, im excited. when she not talking to me, i cant seem to fathom life. i need her. i never felt like this about someone. i think these type of feelings are one in the lifetime feelings. she always lay shit out and put it in perspectives ive never contemplated.  they say sometimes when you in love, you wanna be surrounded by it. with that being said, she can never smother me. i seriously have no bad things to say about this girl. i really don't. the problems that she say she has, i can deal with. not even that, her negatives don't bother me. ill try to make them positives for her cuz i want her flawless.  whats wrong with me y'all? why do i feel like this for a woman i haven't had the pleasure in being her dude or man or husband. she is just a friend.

Great Memorial Day

Never be afraid to fail. Becuz you tried

Flight club

No more bullshittin

Shake it off. That's how you play it off

Can't love her from afar

Man. Never felt so empty before

5/16/12

so i got this problem. i cant seem to stop thinking about someone who is forbidden fruit. i mean she is so sweet and kind but she just cant go that route with me. now that reason is just form the outside looking in. when you on the inside looking out, she is supposed to be with someone like me. its safe to say, me...not someone like me but ME.  the problem lies within the people who see us. then again its much more than that.

how i view it, i should be with this girl cuz she is so compatible for me. but the timing is wrong. but i don't know when the time is right. i don't know the length thus the impatience can kick in quickly with out my knowledge on most days.

i  will leave it at that right now cuz i feel like i talked too much as it is.

i love it

A 50- something year old white woman arrived at her seat on a crowded flight and immediately didn't want the seat. The seat was next to a black man. Disgusted, the woman immediately summoned the flight attendant and demanded a new seat. The woman said "I cannot sit here next to this black man." The fight attendant said "Let me see if I can find another seat." After checking, the flight attendant returned and stated "Ma'am, there are no more seats in economy, but I will check with the captain and see if there is something in first class." About 10 minutes went by and the flight attendant returned and stated "The captain has confirmed that there are no more seats in economy, but there is one in first class. It is our company policy to never move a person from economy to first class, but being that it would be some sort of scandal to force a person to sit next to an UNPLEASANT person, the captain agreed to make the switch to first class." Before the woman could say anything, the attendant gestured to the black man and said, "Therefore sir, if you would so kindly retrieve your personal items, we would like to move you to the comfort of first class as the captain doesn't want you to sit next to an unpleasant person." Passengers in the seats nearby began to applause while some gave a standing ovation.

Can you raise one eyebrow?

wtf are these questions

Ask me anything

Would you rather have the ability to fly, or the ability to breathe underwater?

fly

Ask me anything

Ketchup or mustard?

relish

Ask me anything

What's the furthest you've ever traveled?

aruba

Ask me anything

Would you rather be a vampire or a werewolf?

human

Ask me anything

What was the best concert you went to?

never been

Ask me anything

If you were in a band, what would you name it?

the foundation

Ask me anything

Are you quick to change your mind?

im usually set in stone

Ask me anything

What would your dream job look like?

accounting business and football

Ask me anything

Do you believe in God?

all day every day

Ask me anything

Where do you most frequently hang out with friends?

hotel rooms....like we in vegas lol

Ask me anything

If you could only listen to one song for the next month, which would it be?

jus listen to rap cuz one song would suck

Ask me anything

What's your favorite place to visit?

right now is my bed....im so tired

Ask me anything

Do you prefer 2%, 1% or skim milk?

2% homeboy

Ask me anything

Would you rather date a lot of different people, or be in a committed relationship?

committed

Ask me anything

Do you have a good singing voice?

in the shower

Ask me anything

Who are you thinking about today?

my urge to use my perscription

Ask me anything

Declaration of Faith

BLESSED BE THE NAME OF THE LORD GOD JEHOVAH WHO CAUSES ME TO ALWAYS WIN. I THANK YOU, GOD FOR HELPING ME SEE WHAT I CAN NOT SEE, AND TO BE WHAT OTHERS SAY I WILL NOT BECOME. I WILL MAKE THE CHOICE TO BE HAPPY IN ALL THAT COMES MY WAY TODAY AS YOU HELP ME IGNORE, FIGHT AND DEFEAT EVERY OBSTACLE OF ADVERSITY DESIGNED FOR MY FAILURE. I CHOOSE NOT TO FAIL! I CHOOSE TO BE UNSTOPPABLE, UNMOVABLE, PROSPEROUS, AND SUCCESSFUL BECAUSE I AM PUTTING YOU, MY GOD FIRST AND TRUSTING YOU WITH  LIFE ALL DAY TODAY!
THANK YOU, GOD THAT YOU HEAR ME, YOU ANSWER, YOU ARE NEAR AND BECAUSE OF YOUR PRESENCE THERE IS NO FEAR THAT WILL DEFEAT ME TODAY!
I AM A WILLING WARRIOR, A WILLING WORSHIPER, A WISE WITNESS, AND A CHILD OF THE MOST HIGH GOD. SOMETHING GOOD, SOMETHING GREAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME TODAY!

CHECK THIS OUT

I HAVENT POST ANYTHING IN QUITE SOME TIME. BUT IM BACK. JUS GOT SOME RANDOM THOUGHTS TO SHARE.


IS THERE ANY REAL LOYAL OUT THERE? SHOULD I KEEP LOOKING OR IS IT A LOST CAUSE?

CAN YOU BE GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION?

WHY EVERYBODY WANNA BELIEVE IN DRAMA BEFORE THE TRUTH?

DO THE TV TELL YOU WHO AND WHATS ATTRACTIVE OR DO YOU CHOOSE ON YOUR OWN?

CAN MONEY BUY LOVE?

WHY DON'T PEOPLE TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEY OWN ACTIONS?

THINK ABOUT THOSE QUESTIONS....LET ME KNOW YOUR FEED BACK

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