People can run and hide from who they are but why when it's deemed to come full circle? 

Some thoughts that I would consider sensitive will never be on this blogspot. I hate that I'm this way cuz I kno others who don't even have to .....

Fuck it. We prolly have the same problems I jus got about differently. 

Why do I always need attention. Why do my self esteem gets this low? 

I want confirmation so I can stop mentally questioning it. 

I don't know if those were for me or you had a stressed out morning. I kinda want that to be for me so I have some proof that you care for me that much.  But at the same Tyme that's so self centered of me to think them running down ya eyes was for me.  That's shows how much I love you tho.  I've done it multiple times.  Same feelings remain but I'm still cried out. 

I really want to tell this girl that I like her because I have a feeling that we could be a couple but history shows me that admitting that i like her  first causes her  feeling easy

She is so sexy to me yet skinny pretty cute I want Her but I want her to want me to

Yup

Yeah I trip out, get mad at the world, I get angry, I get frustrated,  all of this could be cured if I could get some sex yes I said I need some pussy

I wanna hate so this love will go away.  This love for her is constantly  plaguing my mind. Losing focus. 

I try not to get in my feelings but I like you so much that I can't avoid it. 

I think I'm ready for love. 

This proves I'm not perfect. But I still demand it. 

I think I had too many troubles going on in my head is just used this blog site. get my hard earned money and invested into a shrink

I used to say the reason why I'm single is because they say I'm overweight well hell I am overweight but some say that  what makes me not have a girlfriend plus I'm unattractive. That's bullshit. The reason why I am single is because my expectations for the person I choose to be my girl are too high. But that necessarily dont  mean I need to lower them. Because I'm not. Lol 

Too much

This is the perfect example of the trials and tribulations of overthinking. Because overthinking can lead to negative thoughts.

It's hard

Everybody says that me and her should be together they say they see the chemistry they see the love. Truth be told I see exactly what they're talking about but all of this cannot work if she don't see.  she don't feel the same way and honestly I hate to say this but I don't think she does feel the same. If she was any other girl in this world I would've been like oh well NEXT!!! but I'm having a hard time leaving this one because she's been around forever. How can you be like deuces to the forever?

I have to continue to focus on me and only me. Best only way I can prove to have my life where I want it to be.

I always come here to unleash my thoughts on women. Becuz I can't tell no one how I feel about love. 

I don't know what this Kush do but I think of you when I get high

Stomach all cause a messed up today. Food poisoning? Upset stomach? Diarrhea?  Indigestion? I don't know what it is but it has me grounded today I'm sorry

I think the dreams I have and I remember me something otherwise why do I remember

Always looking for the one who I can introduce to moms. 

things gotta change...
need to gather the mental strength to be in my study mode

We gone make it

I dream of her she dreams of me

Hey

Never know how much I love her untilI saw what I saw today. Buried evidence, rushing to the surface instantly. It's like my love for her never left. But I realized that I don't want it to leave I'm glad it surfaced rather have her love me than to destroy feelings that won't disappear that won't die that won't disintegrate it won't dissipate that won't evaporate they only elevate and  escalate 

Yea. She mad!

hole

uneasy feelings when its time to go home.
use to be a time when going home was something to look forward to
i know what the feeling is
withdrawls from television
no tv so far this month
feel like solitary confinement
only to the mind of a man that was a dependent of the idiot box
yes ima victim
 gave me time to think
cant do the same things no more
but no tv makes me feel like i am missing out on something
hole in my gossip
hole in my daily news
hole in my social life
hole in me... 

confirmation

Dreams remembered are incomplete and i always wondered why they were that way. i have plenty of dreams that i remembered but this one i had in particular recently had my mind in a tailspin. i had some strong emotions about the dream as if it was real. maybe the dream will telling me something i don't know.  the subconscious is a very powerful thing.but the dream showed me one thing, i really do love her.

my mind focused on her the whole dream. it showed her on a date with a guy and my dreams blurred his face. well you knoww when your dream don't make clear of some faces? that was this dream. the point of view of the dream was that of a movie. now on this date i see her having a good time. i never really hear what they speak about but i see they are having a good time.
later as the date progressed, it lead to the part of the date where its either a kiss goodnight and end of date or they go in and really 'date." now as he walked her up to her front door, they were hugged up. he go in and kisses her and to the pleasure of the kiss it led him into the house. they kissed the whole way in. the point of view stayed at the door. i never knew what happened after that. yet it was kinda implied what happens next right?

waking up from that dream, i was furious. not because the dram finished but  because i felt it in my heart that she had sex with him. now keep in mind, this girl is someone I'm not dating. i never dated her at all yet I'm pissed off that she had sex. yes i know it wall all a dream but my emotions is caught up in it. one will say I'm within my feelings. i am. keep it real. but i ask myself why I'm so emotional and angered by this. and i have only concluded is that i love this girl. i really do. i cant deny it when my dream made it perfectly clear. 

so what do i do? do i go tell this girl my feelings? i can tell all my friends excluding her and they will all tell me to tell her how i feel. i should take their advice. what all don't know is that if i do that and she don't feel the same way, not only does the chance of relationship fail, the friendship is damaged or even broken. i say this, as much as i love this girl, i love the friendship more and I'm not the best at gambling so i gotta keep this poker face.

Instagram Beef

This ongoing battle need to stop. B and S need to jus part ways because when you stand alone your Beautiful and Stunning. But this constant battle makes y'all Bull/Shit

Confusion

Thoughts running in my brain clustering my mind want to escape but I have no way to  the exit so runs around like a chicken with its head cut off waited for me to put the thoughts into words that come off soft  but it's afraid to don't know how

I've noticed

Every beautiful woman has that one male friend that's overweight and a best friend and its to a  point that that best friend has everything that the woman wants in the man and the only thing stopping them two from  ever being together is  he's overweight.  now trip on that. 

Be you

Well, girl let's go
Walk your broken heart through that door
Sit yo sexy ass on that couch
Wipe that lipstick off of your mouth
I take it slow
She in love with my crew
She said make enough so I can try some
I thought taking drugs jus’ ain't you (be you)
Yeah girl, just be you

stuck

being sexually frustrated is not the business....i tell you...sometimes people just need to get it in every now and then just to prevent stress that is never needed lol

Me

you try to play this role where your adaptable to every situation. the reason is to be more of an understanding person. but the truth is you being what you think they want you to be based of how they are. that's acting. that playing a role. your forgetting who you are and ignoring what you wanna be. what you wanna do. how you wanna live. live for you. gotta keep your heart set on what makes you feel happy. blissful excitement. life is what you make it. make it extraordinary.

My heart is not broken but its stubborn becuz the love has a road block. Refuse to turn around destined to go forward.

My heart is not broken but its stubborn becuz the love has a road block. Refuse to turn around destined to go forward.

I never thought love can hurt so much.