CLUB TATOU

Saturday night was one of those nights that i wanted to party again, the homie hit me up was talking bout club KRESS. this is one of four choices for my bday shindig. I'm was trying to go to kress last night to peep the club out and see if i wanna go there. becuz its really between cabana on Friday or kress on Saturday. but like i said i was tryna get in to kress. they were only allowing bottle service which was 1200 for a table of 10 four bottles. so yea we pushed on to the next venue. all we knew off that had some of our folks in was club tatou. oh my this place was a fucking flop. bottom of the rung ass bitches in the venue i swear. well it was a couple of 10s but the rest were -10s. this shit was str8 ghetto. but i didnt mind it for the simple fact that this was a back up choice. if it was my intention to go and this was the result, i woulda been highly upset. I'm use to cleanliness and shit like that. the fact its downtown was not helpful neither but damn. but ima kill this blog with this cuz i feel I'm disrespecting the ones who went there so ima stop for now.

DRUNKEN NIGHT

last night was one of those drunken nights. my night didn't really pop off til midnight. i get a call from old flame(no not the smoldering one). she said that she want me to come to this thing in Hollywood. i was thinking a club but naw, someone house that lives in Hollywood. so i go cuz it ain't shit else to do and i know i have to be at my job at 10am. so i go over to the desired location. when i get there its like snow all over the house...not real snow y'all but snow bunnies...(white girls dumbass). so i was a lil turnt on before i got drunk(yes i got drunk). so I'm like wow, lets get this poppin. i get invited in by my old flame and we commence to drinking. i saw they had REMY, HENN DOGG, AND COURVOISIER, so i made my self a french connection. man was that shit bomb.com so we get drunk and start playing games and dancing and shit. i know my limit but i didn't care. all the night progresses we start to mellow out in a drunken sense(oxymoron?). one of the snow bunnies pointed toward me and said "I WANNA HAVE SEX WITH YOU" my eyes light up. shit like that i dint hear every day. when she said that my old flame was sitting on lap(well on my pelvis cuz i know she felt me poking out my pants). then my old flame said " WELL WERE FUCKING TONIGHT, SO YOU CAN GET YOURS TOMORROW" if there was another level of having a erection, i just reached it. lol. so about 4am, me and my flame go to a room and we made it do what it do. 6:30am i wake up and put my shoes on and continue to leave. as i walk out the house, that snow bunny who wanted to sex me asked for my iPhone and really put my number in... i gave her my card with my cell# on it. i leave, head home, change clothes, and at work by 10am. its 11:15 now and all i can think of is "she gonna call me" cuz if she is, she gonna get that DIESEL SEX.

PARKING SPACE

my day is just slow today. I'm just so damn tired...got my home girl mad cuz i wont do what she ask yet when i as for the same thing she wanna give me that "this is not a you do, ill do thing" its cool i guess. i just don't feel like me today, loss my sense of humor. gotta find it. but the only thing i can say about today was i saw two men fighting over a parking space....something like you see on Seinfeld

first let me say that there were plenty spaces to park but this one was close to the destination. but one person took the spot while the other went slightly past it to back in to space ass first. when he saw the other person take the spot, they argued and argued. now i went into the same store and i park probably 12feet away. i walked in, got my nick knacks and walked out...still beff'n for all i know they still there now. man!!!! I'm out. holla til Friday yoooo

blah blog

man today is one of them days y'all. i just feel so damn bland. feel like a zombie kinda. but up since 5am and sleep just seem like sleep is a long tyme away. i just wanna wanna curl up in a ball and hide... but I'm cool. i can manage. i once went 96hrs with only 11hrs of sleep. so I'm good. ima fighter....better than ever.

RENTAL BLOG

wassup y'all. well as you know i lost my car 20 days ago and things have been weired. but i just got me a rental and all is good. but damn the rental making me miss my car. the reason being is that the rental feels like my Sara. SHIT!!! the rental is a tease. its making the mourning process long. that's not the worst part, the rental is the same color as the rental. shit is crazy yo. i need a new car so the start process cant begin.

IHEARTMYCAREER

my profession is a income tax preparer. and i like to say, "I LOVE THIS SHIT" i love the taxes form the start to the finish. my biggest joy is giving that person a large refund. i do my best to make sure no one owes uncle SAM. i do a good job too...so yea holla at cha boi for them taxes yo

JORDAN SATURDAY

today is another Jordan Saturday. for those who up on game, Jordan Saturday is a day when a pair of his shoes form the past became available for sale. every man who rock Jordan's and appreciate them like i do like this day. especially if you attain a pair. now Jordan shoes is so damn fire that they pair they sell at selected stores are only limited to 2 pair per size. honestly your lucky if you find a store that have 2 pair per size. but Jordan's are that scarce. nowadays, its hard to find the Jordan's in your size because each company got employees who want the Jordan's just as bad at the customers. so you know they get dibs first. so getting the Jordan's is a struggle. well not for me and the homie Sean. we get the jordan with out delay. i wont say where and he wont either so dont even ask but we just got it like that and when the speckle black and white 6's come out, we gonna walk right in and get them when y'all in line early in the morning hoping the people in front of you are not your size. today Jordan was his 6Th edition and the color was black and varsity red. next Saturday is the white and silver high top second edition. shit just peep game at 23isback.com ill holla

THE EXTRA LONG BLOG

this is an excerpt from a story that is being created by me and my vivacious Texas sweet heart

"Trey's in trouble isn’t he?" Her friend asked knowingly.

"Damn right" she replied. Before getting out of the car janae phone rang. Picking it up she saw that it was trey calling.

"Yea?" She answered roughly.

"Oh so that's how you gone talk to your man?"

"Whatever nigga what u want"

"Imma be home late. Like 5am late"

"And I'm suppose to wait up for you"

"No, I'm just doing my duty and letting you know. Shit, the way you talk why come over at all?"

"Exactly. Have a nice night?"

"So it’s like that?"

Instead of answering she hung up and tossed her cell back into her purse.

"That was trey wasn't it?" Cali asked with a laugh in her voice.

"The nerve of him!" Janae exploded in response.

"Don't worry about it. Y'all can settle that shit tonight"

Janae got out almost forgetting to secure her alarm system in hurry. As expected there was a long like up but that was of no importance to her. She never had to worry about lines since she was the club owner’s girlfriend. Soon to be ex if trey didn't learn his lesson by the end of tonight.

"Whoa back of the line. No excuses-" the surly Asian bouncer. Wade announced as soon as he saw her.

"Wade no asshole responses, let me and my home girl in now" she interrupted with her hand on her hip.

"Oh shit janae? Where u been?" He asked automatically trying to be friendly.

"Does it mater? Move" she commanded bringing out her inner bitch.

Without another word wade moved aside. Janae never usually took advantage of it. But she knew if any of treys employees even gave her so much of a hard time that they would be fired the next day. However that was the last thing on her mind.

Cali and her made their way through the packed club to the bar and sat down to survey their surroundings. There were strobe lights everywhere, artificial smoke filling the club every so often. The place was decorated like Halloween/masquerade ball, which explained why half the club had on masks. There were waiters wading there way through crowds with red and blue bowls. To anyone else that would be a strange sight but janae knew only too well what was in those bowls. The red bowls had recreations playthings or drugs and the blue bowl had condoms. Even though she was scanning the room furiously for trey, she to commend him on the decorations.

Everywhere she looked people were working up a sweat on the dance floor, or planning illicit things in darkly lit corners. None of it affected her, even when she saw a girl dressed like Cinderella; lift up her skirt for the roman god wannabe behind her. Nobody had to tell her they were disguising their real activity with dancing in the middle of the club. Wild shit always happened at treys club, apart of the reason she stopped coming.

"Gimmie a gin and tonic" Cali called out to the bartender behind her.

"That's called a kryptonite tonight. Anything else?" The bartender replied.

"Oh and a rum and coke for my girl here"

"No I'm cool right now"

"Suit yourself" Cali replied shrugging.

Once she had her gin and tonic, Cali and janae chilled by the bar for all of 5 minutes before they were approached. Janae brushed off every pimp, superhero, and so called thug, but Cali, she could see out the corner of her eye, was getting increasingly edgy.

"Go ahead sweetheart" she said in a bored voice.

"You sure? I don't want to leave you by yourself"

"You just wanna see me lay the smack down on trey. Go!"

"Alright don't make him bleed!" Cali said laughing as she went off to find a suitable dance partner.

Janae sighed crossing her legs as she sat on the bar stool. Turning around, she faced the bartender who was dressed as a vampire bride.

"Do u know where trey is?"

"Nope. Ain't seen him all night. Who is asking?”

"Mind your business" she said hopping off the stool.

She went up to the vip, brushing off another set of men along the way and was only met with the sight of hoes brushing their legs up against random men, who were going wild with the grey goose and patron. Some were getting lap dances and others were downing xtc with glasses of vodka. Janae rolled her eyes at their wild and extravagant display. It was scenes like this that made risqué so popular. Hell, it was the reason why she came to the club, the night she met trey, in the first place. Biting her lip at that thought, she turned around to leave when somebody grabbed her by the waist.

"Hello goddess. Care to dance?" A mysterious sexy male voice asked.

"Who the hell- ?" She asked trying to turn around

"Ah ah" the mystery man said stopping her from turning around, "just dance with me"

She resisted as he swayed behind her but eventually gave in. Besides, if trey were to pass by he'd see her dancing with the dude behind her. She smirked at the thought of his furious facial expression. Just as r.kelly feeling on yo booty came on; her mystery dancer put an electric blue drink in a martini glass in front of her.

"Drink" he commanded

"I don't take drinks from strangers..." she trailed off as he kissed her the sensitive spot on the neck.

"Drink" he said purring into her ear.

Knowing that what she was about to do was incredibly stupid; she took the glass from him and downed the drink in one gulp. Dj would be furious if he found out. It tasted a lot like hypnotiq but with a weird additional taste. Immediately, as the next song came on, the drink started to have an effect on her body. Her vision became slightly hazy and her sense of touch became extremely heightened. As the mystery man, pilled her closer she found herself extremely turned on.

"You ready yet?" He whispered as the drink worked its magic.

She nodded, not able to get her words out. He blindfolded her and led her by the hand. All she could do was listen to the joyful screams, laughing, and loud music going on around her. However, as they walked those sounds became muffled. Just as she was about to speak up, she wad laid down on what felt like a bed.

Her blindfold was lifted and she found herself in one of treys dimly lit private rooms. She had been in one once, when she was completely drunk and met trey for the first time. The rooms were open for public use for many things but mainly for one reason. Strangely enough, she wasn't perturbed at the thought at all. Looking over at her side, she saw a man dressed in a dark prince costume. He had on a mask so she couldn't see her face but as time passed, she cared less and less.

"What the hell was in that blue shit you gave me?" She asked as her nipples became alive.

"Just something to help u relax" he said reaching around and undoing her dress.

"Relax? The fuck you talking about?" She asked fighting not to slur her words as his hand grazed across the back of her hand.

"Hush" he said silencing her with a kiss.

It was a soft kiss but it sent tingles down her spine. Before she knew it, he was on top of her and shoving his tongue down her throat. She moaned as his hands roamed all over her body and finally rested between her kegs. He pulled away from the kiss but before she could do anything, he pulled away from the kiss but before she could do anything, he pulled out one of her breast and sucked on it lightly as he slipped a finger into her pussy.

Gasping for air, she leaned back onto the bed as he glued his mouth to her breasts, and fingered her gently. Janae closed her eyes as she felt herself become so turned on, it was as if her body was on fire. Suddenly, trey became a distant thought; this mystery man taking advantage of her, but she loved every second. Just when she thought she was going to explode. He slipped another finger inside her. Her eyes flew open as his fingers rubbed on a certain spot. Immense pleasure flooded her body as she opened her mouth in a silent scream.

For what felt like an eternity, she had the hardest orgasm shed ever experience. When she finally came off cloud nine, she looked up to see the mystery man sucking his fingers.

"You taste so sweet goddess" he said kissing her on the cheek.

"Is that it?" She asked in breathy whisper.

"Oh so she wants more huh?" He replied damn near ripping off her dress.

Janae nodded as she watched him undress them both quickly. He left her in her thong but not for very long. She let out a small scream, as he flipped her over onto her stomach. The silk bed sheets started the fired in her pussy all over again. It didn't much help that her mystery mans athletic physique was right above her. To her surprise, instead of getting straight to her business, he planted kisses all over her ass. Each one made her quiver with anticipation.

"How's my sexy goddess?" He asked trailing his tongue all over her ass cheeks.

"So good" she moaned softly.

No sooner than she had said that. He placed his tongue in her ass crack. She shrieked as he slid her thong off and slowly dragged his tongue in her crack. This man, whoever he was, was nasty but her body was craving more. Just as she was getting use to his tongue in her ass it finally made its way to her pussy. He shoved his tongue and pulled her legs up on his shoulders.

Janae screamed as he proceeded to eat her from behind. The sensations that his tongue was giving her body were incredible. It felt crazy long and invaded every crevice in her pussy. Gripping the sheets, she screamed even louder as he started to tongue her clit. She was losing her mind with pleasure. Even when she did cum, his tongue remained in her pussy. Janae gasped for air as he moaned and ate her even more vigorously as her juices filled his mouth. Before she could stop herself, she started moving her ass in motion with his tongue. In response, he gripped her ass and stuck a finer in it as his tongue ran wild on her walls. Every time she tried to raise her head, her vision would become unfocused and her head would swim.

After some time had passed, she was able to throw her head back and close her eyed as he ravished her for what seemed like hours. He slipped another finger in her ass and sucked on her clit hard. Seemingly oblivious to the loud screams she gave him in response. Just as she thought he'd stay in her pussy forever, he slid his tongue out and back into her ass crack. He tongued it gently watching as her body jerked with his tongue. Once he had lubricated her ass crack with his saliva, he moved back down and slipped his tongue right back into her pussy, emitting a loud shriek from janae.

"Can’t. Get enough" he said in between slurps.

Janae moaned back a response and gave a loud and drawn out groan as he sucked on her clit again. He made sure to make extra loud slurps so she would hear how much he enjoyed her. The room was quickly filled by her moans and screams as this mysterious prince ate her like he had not eaten in months. Finally, once she exploded in his mouth for the 10th time, he gave it one last lovingly kiss and took her legs off his shoulders. Laying down her head on the pillow, she felt her legs turn to jelly as they made contact with the bed. She couldn't get up even if she tried. Smirking a little, she felt his electric kisses make their way up to her cheek.

"That's now my favorite dessert" he whispered softly into her ear, grabbing her breasts from behind.

"Who are u and why does my body love u?" She asked turning her head and kissing him lustily.

She tasted her juices on his lips and chuckled as he moaned into her mouth. Pulling away, she licked up all the juices on his cheeks.

"Naughty girl" her mystery man said, slapping her ass lightly.

Before she could react, he got up and pulled her on top of him.

"Show me what u can do" he said rubbing her nipples.

"But I...." she said a little bewildered.

"Come on my beautiful goddess..." he pleaded squeezing her nipples gently.

She jumped letting out a loud moan. The drinks seemed to be getting stronger as time passed. Something she felt greatly as she sat on his dick.

"Oh shit what the fuck?" She groaned as it went up inside her.

For a few seconds she couldn't even move. His dick had her paralyzed as it sent tiny tremors throughout her body. Her mystery prince broke the spell as he squeezed her nipples slightly harder. Letting out a loud moan, she placed her hands on his chest and moved her hips in a deliberate grind. Janae smirked as he gripped her breasts groaning loudly. As his groans became louder, her confidence as she grinded harder on his dick.

She grinned widely as his hands made their way to her hips. It pleased her to no end to see his breathing get heavier and heavier as she grinded harder on his member. However, the grin on her face faded as he looked her straight in the eyes and gave an evil smile.

"No don't your dare!" She ordered, knowing what was coming next.

Disobeying her direct order, he grabbed her ass and pushed his dick hard up into her pussy.

"Dammit no!" She yelled as he gave her punished strokes.

Janae screamed at the top of her lungs as he let loose on her, without showing any signs of letting up. Whenever she was in control, she never did like it when someone took it away from her...until now. She didn't know whether to scream something or to run away from his dick. The latter was not even an option as he slid a finger into her ass and pushed up into her with all his strength. All thoughts of running away were extinguished as quickly as it popped into her head. Especially because he was thrusting so hard he made her headdress fall off onto the floor.

She knew that blue drink had a drug in it but it made everything amazing. Their bodies were covered in sweat, her legs were numb, and she would be sore in the morning, but the man beneath her was making it all worth it. He just wouldn't stop and she never wanted him to. Janae couldn't even recall the last time she was sexed soo...she couldn't even think of a word for what he was doing to her, it was that good. She felt every inch of his member, trying to go deeper with each thrust. This prince, whoever he was, fucked her like it would be his last. His facial expression was a mixture of strain from the effort of thrusting up, and some of the pleasure that was coursing through his body and well as hers.

"This dick wants to feel you girl come on!" He yelled at her.

Janae couldn't even respond. She was too busy trying to figure out how she was getting so much pleasure out of one motion. It didn't make any sense, none of it made sense. Here she was getting fucked silly by a complete stranger, but she felt like he knew her. He was just so sure of himself. Even his thrusts seemed precise and almost as id he knew how she liked to be fucked. Not to mention that whatever was in the drink he gave her, just magnified everything by 10 times. Everything and everywhere was extremely sensitive. It also didn't exactly help that he chose to smack her ass at that very moment. She let out the 40th scream for the night as he grunted with concentration.

"Dammit girl!" He exclaimed sitting up and sucking on her breasts hungrily.

Janae lost her balance, and didn't grab his back in time. The prince tried to catch her but it was too late. Nonetheless it made no difference to them. He propped her leg up onto his shoulder, and continued to fuck her with his mouth still on her nipple. As he pounded away, the drinks effects made it feel like electric bolts were running down her spine. So much that she could no longer yell out in coherent English.

The prince smirked, pulling away from the breast and planted his mouth on her neck. She was losing her mind with the pleasure, and a part of her wanted to stop it, but a huge part of her wanted to get lost in the craziness that was this alcohol/drug sex. Yet at the same time, she was more aware of everything than she had ever been. Her body certainly was aware of each touch or sensation; more than was almost too much for her to take.

The room temperature was skyrocketing; her eyes were rolling in the back of her head. When the music outside suddenly got loud.

"Damn oh shit, my bad man!" She heard someone say.

She looked up just in time to see an embarrassed scantly-clad girl with what looked like a 30 something year old man. They furiously closed the door as her prince cussed at them while she tried to catch her breath since he had slowed down once the door closed however; he got right back to business like he had never stopped. This proved to be too much for janae. One stroke sent one big current throughout the body, which resulted in an orgasm which made the room go black.

Her body convulsed widely as the orgasm ran its course but he didn't stop. He kept going right up until he reached his high. Just as she came off her cloud, he busted inside of her and dropped his head into the crook of her neck breathing heavily. Letting out a heavy sigh, she no longer felt like her body was on fire but it did feel like she had ran a hundred miles.

"Baby girl" she hear him groan into her neck

Immediately her eyes widened in realization. Pushing him off her, she asked the question she wasn't sure she wanted the answer to.

"Who are you?" She whispered a little dumfounded

He smiled at her and took off his mask...it was trey himself

****

"Janae!" She heard someone yell shaking her awake.

Janae's eyes reluctantly opened as she realized that it was all a dream. The alcohol & drug induced sex, the freaknik, and everything. She sat up in bed still very groggy and looked over at her clock to see that it was 4am.

"Baby....can we talk?" She heard someone say.

Looking to her side, she saw an apologetic trey looking like he was two seconds away from pouting. Rubbing her eyes, she leaned back against the headboard and gestured for him to talk.

"I'm sorry. You just always working, it’s like you never have enough time for me" he said looking up at her.

"You know that's not true" she replied still trying to shake sleep off.

"Yea but that how I feel" he said taking her hand, "how u think it makes me feel to see u running out at morning, and just flopping down onto bed at night? Shit, it don't help that you still in amazing shape neither."

She chuckled and squeezed his hands gently.

"I was having the nicest dream. You ruined it" she said with a sigh.

"About who? T.I? I know the nigga next time he come by the club imma beat him up"

"No fool" she said laughing. "I don't remember. Something bout music and a drink laced with some kind of drug"

He gave her a confused look which made her laugh even harder. She didn't even know what she was talking about either. The long she was awake, the further away the dream seemed.

"You were right though. Did we ever get to christen that bath tub when I moved in?" She asked suddenly.

"No. you offering?" He asked with a hopeful gleam in his eyes.

"What you think?"

No sooner had she spoke than he was carrying her into the bathroom. Just as she was about to get into the bath tub, she saw a martini glass filled with an electric blue liquid where the soap dish would usually be. It seemed strangely familiar.

"What's that?" She asked pointing to it.

"This?" Trey asked picking it up as he joined her, "just this drink I mixed when I got home. I call it blue magic"

"Blue magic? You been watching too much American gangster"

"Nah it ain't even like that" he reassured laughing. "You'll like it. Come on...drink"

CROSSROAD

i don't know what the do man. my life has its crossroads and i have seem to take the right route. well one tyme i took the wrong route that's why I'm overweight but give me a break i was young when i hit that crossroad. but I'm not talking ab0ut that. I'm talking about my feelings. there are a sea of women out there but I'm stuck on where to fish. some people might think I'm a flirtatious man, and i will say YOU FUCKIN' RIGHT. I'm trying to not be that way for 2010. I'm gonna focus on me and then apply my power in the pursuance of a women. but how you deal with it when the ideal women is in your face now? do i continue to work on me and just hope she still around when my self focus is over? do i stop the focus on me, attain the women, then back to me again? what should i do? both routes have their downfall which brings me back to the crossroad situation. any ideas?

OMG

today is a angry day for me, all i want it to get my damn taxes done and there are money-blockers that's stooping me for getting money. the crazy shit is that i do taxes for a fucking livin'. why hate just give me what I'm asking for OK. that's it. i say something better later. FUCK!!!!

A Stroll Down Hungry Lane

yo, its coming to a point that walking home is outlawed. for y'all who know were i live i was walking to the Mobil gas station on Florence and la cienga. I'm just minding my own damn business til some hungry looking fake ass wanna be gangsters walk up too me like "where you from." the way he said it made me joke about it and i point toward my house and said "I'm from over there. where you from" the second guy understood my joke and laughed at his friend. now i don't know if the dude who asked me was a rookie but he had some work to do.

while on my walking route, cars still splash you for laughs. YES!!! i got splashed on but i didn't care because I'm a strong believer in karma. seconds later i heard that same care that splashed me honk his car like that honk you hear before a crash. of course there wasn't a crash but that honk sound made me laugh. so i turned around and giggled but they didn't hear me. but they now if they intentionally splashed me and then honk they care the way they did, they can feel my laughter. so like i said a strong believer in karma.

now my mission for walking was food and it was 10pm. i haven't ate all king day, low key king fast lol. but my destination was the louis burger next to Randy's donuts. i never really ate at this place but it was the only thing i can think of that was food and not junk junk if you catch my drift. but when i get there the place is closed. i was furious. so now I'm at the corner of Manchester and la cienga hungry as hell. i did not wanna walk bout the way i came and encounter the same shit because with the hunger attitude, i wouldn't be pleasant. but it just so happens that a dear friend calls me and decides to get me. she took me to taco bell and took me home. such a wonderful friend. ....OH HOW I MISS MY DAMN CAR

Circle of Spiritis by Tanya

the following was so moving to me today i had to blog it for y'all

enjoy

Hello Spirits,

I hope all are well on this 15^th day of Jan., 2010.

We are half way into the first month of the New Year and some of us have already made progress by committing to Self, strengthening our focuses, and ignoring bouts of fear, indecision and doubt. I congratulate Us. ;-)

A psychic told me six years ago that people liked to talk to me because I exalt them. She said that I ‘had a way of turning things on its ears’ to show people an alternate view of a troubling situation. I have since seen proof of those traits; and now, I attempt to exalt each of you once again by clarifying your role in your life’s fulfillment.

As Spirit dictates, I type.

Spirits, we are not a powerless, mindless group of beings going through the motions of living. In Life, things will happen either ‘by design’ or ‘by decision’. ‘By design’, means there are things set to happen as ‘instructed’ by a Higher Being. This is not ‘fate’, ‘destiny’ or ‘karma’…it is a divine action that is set to occur in order for us to grow, heal, progress, discover, and/or accomplish. ‘By decision’, means there are things set to happen due to a previous choice or action on our part, as all actions receive reactions and all decisions yield consequences and repercussions.

Now that we’ve simplified Life, let’s magnify your role in it.

If you can either accept this way of being or merely accept the possibility of Life being this simple, you will move forward to the blessing of this message. If you are dead-set against Life being so simple, not realizing that it’s your own emotional contributions of fear, doubt, pain, insecurity, and indecision that complicate matters, then you should stop reading and find something (else) to do…for Self-advancement obviously was not a New Year’s Resolution for you.

When things occur ‘by design’, regardless to what Higher Being/Power you believe in, know that these things are divine in nature, thus, regardless of how they feel as they occur, they are still good for you (think swallowing nasty medicine that will eliminate that horrific pain lodged in your throat). When things happen ‘by decision’, they may be uncomfortable as well, but you must recognize that these things are born out of your control. You caused these things to occur, therefore, you will want to endure as best you can while learning the lesson to be learned so that you don’t have to repeat this scene. Things that happen ‘by design’ are catalysts for change; things that happen ‘by decision’ are the after-effects of your heart’s and/or mind’s control. The latter seems so much clearer now doesn’t it? If we’d only realize that some of the negative experiences we endure are the direct result of our own decision-making, we’d make wiser choices, be more conscious of our behaviors and treatments of others, and more mentally focused on our goals and responsibilities.

You see Spirits, the Highest Power has empowered us via things occurring ‘by design, to better handle those things that occur ‘by decision’, yet we are oblivious to that fact. We’d rather trek through Life believing that we are here alone, wandering aimlessly, seeking that which we desire but accepting that which appears. Some of us excel mentally yet possess an unfulfilled heart; while others spend much of their life-experience seeking emotional fulfillment outside of them, as their mental capabilities go ignored. And lastly, there are those who find themselves spiritually devastated due to previous (childhood) experiences and subconsciously resign themselves to living a sub-standard life filled with embraced pain, paralyzing fear and vivid disillusions.

Wake up! This is Life, not some fairytale where regardless of what happens throughout the story, we find ourselves living happily-ever-after. We are responsible for how we live. Thus, we are the authors of our own fairy tales. If you want to have a happy ending, then write the text throughout the story that will yield such result. Use ‘White-out’, the ‘backspace key’, hell even the ‘delete’ key to edit your story so that you can produce desired results.

You are empowered; you don’t have to live your Life suffering through the repercussions and consequences of your decisions, for things done ‘by design’ are your tools, the equipment needed to fix or modify the effects of those repercussions and consequences.

You are enabled, you can now make better decisions and respond more confidently, rationally, and promptly to the negative stimuli occurring in your world.

I can’t see how a broken individual is a success; but I can see how he/she can become one.

Now move forward, from this point…

~Inner Peace~

Tanya

“Many failures don’t subtract from a man’s measure, yet it’s the number of attempts that add to his worth.” - Tanya

old smoldering flame

today was one of those days. nothing special that happen, just seen the most craziest shit. when i saw that shit i felt like don king "only in America" i went to the ladera center for lunch and i see this girl i use to mess wit in middle schoo. she saw me actually and said hi to me when i was heading to jamba juice. man she was not looking good neither. im not the one to disrespect someone( maybe when its called for) but she was looking like she fell all the way off. this is not that recession fall off but that i been around the wrong ppl fall off. im not gonna say she was drugged out but one might say that. but when she saw me, she lit up with joy. i never had someone that excited to see me. but the feeling was greatly appreciated tho lol. she was so interested and how i was doing. she kinda hinted around that out fall out was a big mistake on her part. i low key agree with her but in the back of my cerebrum, i felt that she saw me in a form of a handout. she she was trying to get the number so we can catch up. i gave her a number but it wasn't a real one. i gave her some friend number (so reader be aware of a unanimous call). so was i wrong for that ppl?

the 'BLAH' blog

OK, there is this girl i been messing round with for quite some tyme. she cares about me alot but she be having those sides of her that when come out, i actually get nervous. i should be broken up with her long tyme ago but she got that yay yay.(think about it) but i was chillin wit some of my cousins a few days ago(females) and we were driving to the bev. center. they wanted to go shopping( surprise surprise) and my girl at the tyme just so happen to call. my cousin answered the phone and told my girl i was busy. my girl was furious that another female answered my phone. when i found the tyme to call back i did. She never showed signs that she was mad as hell. she asked me to come over her house that night and i agreed with no hesitation(big mistake). later that night i get to her house and a muscle beach looking man answers the door. i was disturbed at first but i felt she wasn't doing any cheating ish if she invited me over. so i asked for my girl and she heard my voice and told me to come to the back room. along with that dude, there were 3other men as well. gang bangers by the clothing and words they were using. when i get to the back, i asked her whats the deal with the dudes in her room. she claimed they family so i dropped it. but she was mad about something else. she was all on my head about when she called earlier. she wanted to know who was the female who answered the phone. i told her who she was but she didn't believe me and she started to raise our voice. we got loud enough to the point the dudes knock on the door asking if she was cool. i yelled out "she fine bruh. mind yo business" he replied " say that shit when yo ass out out here." that's when i knew they were gonna jump me. so i asked her just that and she confirmed it. so I'm officially nervous as shit. she figured she get some payback since she thought i was cheating. so i provided proof that it was my cousin by calling my cousin. she told my girl the deal and now she wanna apologize for this so-called planned ass whooping. i don't know how ima get outta this cuz they gonna whoop my ass on GP. i ended up having to get out the house via the window.

NEVER SAW HER ASS AGAIN.

SARA SILVER.

well I'm officially OK talking about it. on January 6Th, this day was a shock to me, well sorta. it was my first day of working aging for 1st quality tax services( btw, holla at me if you want ur taxes done). i got to work and do what i do. lil do i know, there are some people outside with a desires to take my Sara away from me. when i walk outside to go to lunch, my beloved Sara is gone. my first thought was "is this some type of joke?" i was really hoping that this was a prank. i even contemplated myself leaving Sara in a spot that i forgot she was. minutes past and i quickly realized who has her. the man who took my Sara told me when i confronted her that he was looking for her for weeks. i was doing a good job of keeping Sara away from the bad guys but not on this tragic day. like i said i confronted the man and got to say my final goodbyes to my Sara silver. I'm sure gonna miss her, (sobs). i guess its on to the next one. but i will never forget the love i had with and in Sara silver.
GOOD BYE OLD FRIEND.

lost weekend

i never been so damn bored in my life. this weekend went by hella slow. i actually look forward to a work week just so i can be out the house. its crazy how things can turn around for you. one weekend you have major off the wall fun in Vegas til not having no way round and stuck in the house. it seems to me that the whole world have fun while I'm in the house twirling thumbs. but i guess its for my own good tho. i lost my Sara silver and now its like I'm alone in the world. plus on top of that I'm broke as a mudda lovin joke. i cant even buy a vowel. but all things happens for a reason and I'm a true believer in that. i just wish when I'm in this bored state of mind i had that one friend that can keep ya boi company and therefore make my day. i think i have that in this one girl but i don't know. due to previous drama and he say she say, my enjoyment around her is walking on eggs shells. oh well. it was a lost weekend and i cant believe I'm about to say this but "thank GOD for the work week"

Jack Shit

Due to the fact i love this text message, i decided to blog this joke. courtesy of a friend.

For some tyme many of us have wondered who is Jack Shit. We find ourselves at a lost when someone says "you don't know Jack Shit?" Jack shit is the only son of awe Shit who married Oh Shit, the owners of KNEE DEEP N SHIT INC. In turn, Jack Shit married Noe Shit had 6 kids: Holie Shit, Giva Shit, Fulla Shit, Bull Shit, and twins Deep Shit and Dip Shit. Deep Shit married Dumb shit , a high schoo dropout. After 15 years, Jack Shit and Noe Shit got divorced and she married married Ted Sherlock and became Noe Shit Sherlock. Meanwhile, Dip Shit married Lota Shit and had a rather nervous disposition named Chicken Shit. Fulla Shit and Giva Shit married the Happens brothers an had a double wedding. The Newspapers invited everyone the the Shit-Happens wedding. Bull shit traveled the world and returned home with an Italian bride, Pisa Shit.

So from now ow, no one can tel you that you don't know Jack Shit.

FREE TYME

in preparing to post frequent blogs, i feel that my readers(you) need to know a lil about me so you can get a feel oh who i am
TV Shoes:
-everybodyloves Raymond(hence the photo)
-burn notice(spy's anthem lol)
-Damages( the evils of being a lawyer)
-law and order SVU (Bre, you feel me on this one huh)
-Men of a Certain age( ray Romano wrote is, i watch it)
- family guy/Cleveland brown show ( gotta get my giggles in)

when it comes to movies, my flavor varies.

ima leave at that... i guess this post is to let you know what i watch on my free tyme not really likes and dislikes.
I'm out. shower power and sleepy tyme

MY FIRST ENTRY

Well everybody, its 2010. Can we brush off 2009, or its to early to do so?
shit if anything, I kinda wanna start it over because its starting off with some drama. the crazy thing about it all is that its involved others yet I'm still the guilty party. when i reflect on this drama form now and 2009, I'm usually the one to blame. i guess I'm people "get outta jail free card." as the days past, i get over it and on to the next day. A good friend told me to keep it political and just listen. i cant put my two cents in because that shit adds up. she right ima just do me and let them do them. in spite of all the drama and the ones who it involved, i love them all. i got a small group of friends and they are apart of it. i don't wanna trim it down. i rather you leave the job(friend circle) then get fired from it.

stay tuned into my blogs, they will get alot interesting and more incomprehensible.
HOLLA